Posts tagged: personal
i wanna go to dapper day but i have no one to go with…
my shyness, awkwardness, and lack of a life has made me a very boring person. it makes me want to do something i’m not suppose to just for the story. i use to be such a fun person. on an unrelated note, i really really hate the red aprons.
So Ed(brain) lately, well yeahs he’s Been a real brat. He’s made me feel like I have to do everything perfect or a list of horrible things are going to happen to me but then makes me redo all the small tasks again and again till they are perfect causing me to not have enough hours in the day to do everything. This is all while Ed is lecturing me about food/image/rightiousness nonstop. And I HAVE to fight Ed on those subjects that’s why I just deal with the be perfect one. Needless to say I’m exhausted all the time now. Of course Ed brain and my brain won’t shut up enough for me to ever actually rest. Dude Im suppose to be loving this easy break I have right now.
i have been up for two hours and ed has already won. well, that’s just wonderful.
five hours. haven’t had an ocd attack that long since right before treatment.
So now i have to pack, create an outfit, buy booze to sneak in, and cry over my lack of disney…
but does anyone have any masqerade outfit inspiration/ideas?